snowy woods

[clyde]

I realize I am the only one here with no life.As if that were not enough--I am haunted.Haunted by reoccurring signs only a fool would ignore.They can be painful.They are so random,yet so direct...so much making me find them by the mistakes I make.

They are not set in such a way that I can follow a plan.Maybe ..maybe only one way could I take them,that way.But I won't do,that way.Don't believe that's what they mean anyway.I really think whatever/whoever is the master of all this;the end is nowhere near being apparently---near.Nor obvious.Although, I thought it was.I thought it was apparent,obvious ...and the end near.And just as empty as it wound up being; it was far more saddening.Yet...by what seems such a cruel event,another sign becomes so obvious, so apparent.As well as baffling as ever,but they are too clear ..as ever. I don't know why some of them are so terrible.Feel guilty because of this,but I am not the one doing it.

I have ..no one to talk to,really.I want... no one to talk to, really.I have a listener.That is best for me now.

I do know I am insane.So rest easy.I would not kill anyone here.Rest easier.


But there is a utility pole and a traffic sign that I really hate ...not far from here.

By suns rise, they will be oddly missing from this life because I am going to kill them both tonight.