here it goes...

[TheSpyder]

You obviously have no one to talk to or you would not be putting this out here. Therapy is a must and you only have to go once to see it helps. You're not looking for answers but rather trying to find our what your deepest feeling are. You're not going to find that here.

Go get help...sooner than later. You're both young. Not that I have any idea who you are or what your situation really is after reading for 5 minutes, but tell her she's right and it is over and worry about the kids. I think you've gotten 3-4 people that have said this. Right now she thinks she can have it both ways, having fun, and having you if she wants. Take the latter off the table as an option and see what happens.

That will be $50

Dr. Spyder