[Riot]

Doc, I'm so very, very sorry. Our animal friends grow older before our eyes, outpacing us, and no, it's not fair. We are cognizant of their disease and what the future holds, and they are not. Remember that, as he will still comfort you, for that is his joy and he will be happy in that, while being the source of your anguish.

It is not cruel or selfish to gain one day at a time, or to want more time. I've never seen an owner that loved their pet error in this judgement, never. You and your family will worry over this, but you alone will know when it is time to say goodbye, or when it is still too soon; and you will be sure of that decision in your hearts, and have no doubts when it is finally time. You will be strong for him, because you love him, and because of that, it is impossible for you to error. Do not rush it, although you fear it.

Think of it not as guilt or anger for being forced to play God, but remember what it really is, the last loving act of kindness you do for a beloved friend, and remember that Shadow's last feelings will be the happiness and pleasure of his family holding him and loving him.

Consider pallative chemo if remission isn't an option. Lymphoma, even advanced stage, responds very well to chemo as far as improving quality of life; and dogs do not suffer the side effects humans do. In my experience it can gain them valuable quality of life.