[ontheoutside]

and for some reason,, im getting a meloncoly feelingthat this season is coming to a end... i never really got that feeling before when a saratoga season came to a end,, but this one is different, maybe its because my fathere doesnt have much to go ,or maybe life for me ,with a break up and seperation is kind of hitting me,,, i think i always looked so foreward to going to the backyard,, sitting with the same freinds, betting, [or not betting] i found myself one day, just enjoying the ppeople, the crisp air,, i just sat in my chair and let the breeze hit me, and im sure i didnt even bet
to me its a different world up here even though i only live 25 miles down the road
its different for me this year, aand im really going to miss it all,, i dont see those people i spend the summer with, only at track, as they come from vermot,new jersey, boston,, yeah saratoga is really special to me and im so sad to see it go